Last Round of Study Meds

As suspected my pregnacy test last week was negative. Last night I finished the last pill in the last round of taking the study medications. The study only lasts for five months so I'm hoping for the sake of me and the study that this month will be my lucky month. If not at least I've learned through doing the study that medication does indeed help solve the problem of me ovulating which so far is the only problem that we have found in our infertility workups. I'm hoping that if I don't become pregnant this round that I will be able to continue to use medication rather than having to go to other (and far more costly) routes. I'm almost positive that the next step would be IUI since we just have the ovulation problem but I would hope that since medication has proven to be effective that we can stuck with that route since my insurance covers Clomid (although I have a feeling that I'm on the other med through the study, there's no way to know since it is a double-blind study) and although my insurance covers the workups for infertility it does not cover any other treatment beyond Clomid. N and I were talking about this since we plan on making an appointment right off with Dr Casson if I'm not pregnant after this round of the study, and N said that perhaps if Clomid isn't the medication that I'm on and I end up going that route that perhaps it would work better. Only time will tell and I'm really hoping that it happens for us this time around. I'm also keeping in mind that normal women who are fertile and ovulate on their own take up to five months to get pregnant since there's only really a a 20% chance of getting pregnant every month so maybe this will happen. For now I'm going to try and remain relaxed and stress free as the weeks go by.

Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

As I'm sure can be gleaned from the title of the post, I got my period today. This week I've been having spotting when I wipe but there wasn't anything worth using a tampon for since it never even stained my underwear. I was so hopeful that this was just some sort of weird early pregnancy spotting type thing since I made it all the way to cycle day 35 this time around, but alas today it got all crazy and bam, not pregnant (unless I'm going to one of those fake period during pregnancy people). While my body was betraying me it started turning into the day of hell at work (12 calls in 2 hours and for those that read this that know me personally that's an insane 2 hours). Then just as things at work are calming down and the cramps that were making me feel like I was going to vomit, a coworker came in and told me that I had a flat tire. I'm not going to go into detail about the disagreement this caused between N and I since this is not a blog about what kind of stress related fights we get into (beyond the sex life stuff). So to sum up my horrible day: period=not pregnant (unless the blood test tells me different), ridiculously busy few hours at work, follow it all up with a flat tire causing a disagreement between N and I. Like I said to begin with a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day (anyone remember the book from childhood?)

Seeing What the Week Brings

Once again the tests show I have ovulated this month. I had a feeling that the tests would show this because I definitely felt the ovulation once again. This month was a little tough because I kept getting some really nasty headaches. I told them about this at my appointment and got a prescription for some meds to try and help with them since a lot of the time they are like borderline migraines. My appointment this month was still fairly early in the cycle (day 22) so the blood test showed negative for pregnancy. Of course it's early in the cycle so it could have been too early to show pregnancy. Now I'm in the waiting game of the phase. I feel like I've been less stressed about this whole process this month so I'm hoping that continues for the next 10 days of the waiting game and also hoping it helped in our quest. If my period does in fact come this month I only have one more month on the study and then if it still doesn't happen I'll be finished with the study and moving on to meeting with the infertility specialist and seeing what happens next and what steps we're going to need to take.

For now though....fingers crossed.